#this was cruel #to take a character and build him from a place that’s so small and dark and broken #to take him from a place where he had something to die because of and give him something to die for #to actually take his world and colour it meticulously bit by bit until he’s giggling in hallways #and then to take that away until he’s exactly where you found him #until to revert back to the way he was is the only thing he has left #TO TAKE HIM IN A PROGRESSION THAT’S A PHYSICAL CIRCLE #this show is run by assholes